Well I am now down to two chemo treatments and four radiation treatments. Very exciting.
Chemo went well. It was a rainy day and I just sat by the window and read for a while and talked to a new woman who was settling in with her two daughters there to support her. My husband came and spent the last hour with me. It was a calm day. My blood pressure was a little high when I got there, of course, but it came down and stayed normal with a normal heart rate the entire time. I was able to get out without any drama. It was wonderful. A true blessing.
I spent the day today just laying low. I feel a little tired and my son stayed home with a fever so we just hung out on the couches all day. It is still cloudy out today so it was the perfect day just to be lazy.
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. I am excited to get better, to get healthier, to get more energetic. I am excited to make my body stronger and my mind clearer. I am excited to finish our front room we started to rearrange right before I started treatment. To do some painting, some clutter clearing all those things I took for granted before, or even dreaded doing. I can't wait to take a shower without my arm stuck out to the side so it won't get wet....
But I think I want to do it all different now. I want to enjoy those things that I took as a chore before. I want to enjoy them because I am doing them for my home, or for my family. I want to enjoy folding the laundry because I am folding them for the people I love. I want to enjoy planning and preparing meals because I am feeding the people I love. I want to enjoy every minute I am serving because God has given me wonderful people to minister to in my home and at my church. I want to see things differently.
So the count down has now begun. And I am looking forward to being normal again. But maybe a little better normal this time around.
Blessings.
